argh yeah.
i’m in the middle of caring for a loved one with bipolar , borderline personality disorder, ptsd, adhd who just is in the tail end of a manic episode ( lasted a couple of months) and now going into the depressive state.
and caring for her two kids (8 and 2)
i’m a loner by nature and i honestly don’t know the last time i’ve had a moment to sit alone and do nothing.
it’s difficult but then we love them and so what’s the option ?
some days i’m so close to just walking and not stopping.
there’s literally a trail right near my house that’s 1000kms all the way to my old home town. with friends and family.
i’d love to do that walk one day. alone.
but i’m getting older and have health issues so times running out. but i can dream.
